WHY? WHY? WHY?

the word 'WHY?' keep appears in my mind and i have no idea why it appears..

can somebody tell me why? i totally cannot explain how i feels now. its weird? I don't know..

How long i never update my blogger? i have no idea too.. why "WHY?" this is a good question...... im feels so speechless now.. somebody tell me why? really speechless..... and i really dont knw why...... feels bad:/ please help me..